This week has been about recovery and survival. I have been feeling drained and down with the culmination ending up in a full blown flu the last few days. I have been taking medications rich in sugar and alcohol, so my metabolism is going to need some work this next week. To speak of this week, for me, it resembles the feeling of being stuck on a frozen pond that only has a thin layer of ice separating you from a slow frozen decent into the eventual afterlife. I use this analogy because of the choices I have been making lately stopping me in my tracks. It is as if I had originally fallen through the ice, and climbed out of the ferocious undercurrent that would have surely swept me away. To now only be standing on this cracking ice a few steps away, frozen with fear and unable to move forward. I know the moving forward gets better with each step, and I have already come so far, but at this moment I stand here. I have had two weeks that I have been sabotaging the efforts from before, with decisions that I knew would be denigrating. I was just getting my resolve back on track, and then I got smacked in the head with this illness junk. Grrr, Argh, Blah...and all that. I wanted to scream, I have screamed, and I have still continued to make questionable decisions in my food choices. OK, so maybe it hasn't been that bad, but I am a bit frustrated with myself because I know I can do better. I know how to stop and think of my choices, stop and feel each bite of my food as if I were meditating on the texture and flavor, rather then just cramming it down. I know this and yet I have been cramming lately, eating a little bit more each time, and still being hungry after. So, like Thanksgiving, I found resolve to reinvent. I will be discussing this in more detail once I have an actual plan formed fully. Right now I am reading up on a few foods that are supposed to focus on your belly fat more specifically, and this is where I believe my focus will be in the near future. I will also be setting up a weekly menu and posting it on here, then my blog can be more of a review of how I did on that menu. I believe this may be easier to write, rather than a daily "what I ate today." I am only a month into this blog and so much has changed, I have been learning so much from all of you as well as on my own. I just want to continue to let you know how important you all have been in this. Thank you so much, from the bottom of my heart.
Progress Report. Today the scale says I have not gained, but I have not lost either. I was not shocked because of the choices I have been making and the lack of exercise, coupled with all the medication and laying around this week due to being ill, and you have a stagnation situation. I have neglected the eating of my large salads before the caloric riddled meals, as well as the "Berry Vomit" very nearly being removed from my daily routine. I also did break one of my "survival" rules of not finishing food on another family members plate, once this week. Knowing this, I can fix it, and I will, going forward I will be planning out my days just like an alcoholic in recovery would. Whew, all this negativity in this post, for that I am sorry. I did however lose another inch around my waist. Maybe this is just a natural readjustment from previous muscle gain, because I have seen my bad choices and feel this is more likely the issue in the smaller numbers. Especially when I should have broken the 500 mark this week. No! It's still a win for the week, right? So, still 504, but now 70 inches around my waist. I love you all, and I continue to be inspired through your presence. This is me, fighting hard not to fall through the cracking ice, and suffer the promise of hypothermia, James.
To help recover quickly from being sick, eats lots of raw garlic. Seriously, it will do the trick. I can't eat plain raw garlic, so I buy jars of pickled garlic, comes in spicy down to mild. I've noticed the spicy tends to reduce food cravings. If you eat several garlic cloves a day your health will improve substancially, inlcuding heart health. Another great thing, is grapefruit seed extract tablets. About 200mg/day will do wonders. Can find in health food department. While there, check out the natural medicines. I no longer give my kids tylenol or cold medicine when they get sick. I'll get you the names of the particular stuff I buy if you'd like but the stuff works better than pharmacuticals. Day care type cold meds just mask your symptoms so you think you're better, thus you do more and rest less, keeping you sick longer, needing more cold meds. The natural stuff just gets you over the crud fast. Troy came down with a fever, miserable ect.. the other night, so I started the natural regimine, including waking every few hours to give more on schedule. By morning he was fine, could've gone to school but I wanted him to rest. No side effects either. But regardless, go get some pickled garlic, the spiciest you can handle. Make it your snack. Can never eat too much and as long as it's pickled, no bad breathe. I actually bought a costco bag of garlic that I plan to pickle myself, looking for a good, not too spicy recipe. Keep pluggin away James. There will be rough days no doubt, it's the successful who just keep on going and refuse to quit. You are still doing very well, even if you don't feel like it right now.
ReplyDeleteNo gain. Thats the goal here right? Even when you are doing everything right, there will be times you wont lose any. Its just the way it is sometimes. However, it is good that you look through the week and target things that may be causing this and pledge to yourself to make changes. Even if it feels to you like you do this over and over with the same result, you don't. Everytime any of this happens, you evaluate. You look for clues as to why it happened, and give yourself options, or a way out next time.
ReplyDeleteIt is so rare that any person on the planet changes overnight. It's just like with being a Christian James. Nobody just snaps their fingers and becomes perfect at it... it takes time, dedication, patience and understanding. It takes the ability to get through each day and learn from it. Take the lessons on to the next day and hope with each passing day we get better.
It's giving up altogether that makes us failures. That's just not something you are going to do right? Just like none of us will ever give up on being Christians. The battle is not always an easy one but the reward for being victorious is so sweet! Keep on hanging on, and I hope and pray you lose this sickness very soon.
Love you!
My beloved brother, I just want you to know that it is in the valleys when you are able to see and appreciate the helping hand of God. This moments are almost a given of feeling like a failure but that is satan. Put your blinders on and only focus on Jesus, because it is in Him that we have the victory! I love you brother be encouraged that you have air in your lungs to breath and your heart is still beating. This when all else fails to help you see that you are blessed, you have been given yet another day. Love you and am praying for you.
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Inch loss is way better the what the scale says. Right on brother! Another inch gone. You skinny beotch! CACA
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