I have had a rough few weeks. I lost the will to continue in the plan while I was sick with pneumonia. I was on steroids and ended up gaining 8 lbs. I found myself using the possible weight gain from the medication as my excuse to abandon all restraint. I fell off the wagon so to speak, but instead of just falling, I dove in head first clinging onto my new shiny excuse like it was a back stage pass to my favorite band.
I have been depressed due to my actions and I was avoiding this blog because I knew what posting on here would mean. I would find myself facing the truth about the decisions I was making. I was most frustrated with the fact that I knew I should have been eating even healthier, but I reached for chocolate instead. I indulged in all of the Christmas treats and did not hold back at all.
So as in keeping with tradition I issued myself a challenge for my New Year's resolution. I am expanding my page from just a blog to a website that will make it a lot easier for people to follow my story. I am adding a links page for the study information that I use. I will be organizing the page for people to either follow daily or on a once in a while basis. The challenge I have issued to myself consists of combining all the knowledge I have and rediscovered since the inception of this blog into a concerted effort that will result in 300 lbs lost in 365 days. I may stumble along the way, but I know the efforts I make this year will be beneficial either way.
So there it is, I am refocusing all of my efforts now that I have recovered from being sick, I am no longer on the drugs that were causing me to gain weight. I don't have any more excuses and have felt the defeat of the last 3 weeks already catching up with me with my breathing and back issues. My resolve is stronger than it has been and I am looking at the whole New Year's resolution as my time to reinvent. All the same requested input will apply to my new site as well, and I have a page dedicated to the best advice I am given. I will still continue to attempt to reach as many people with this as possible because I am hoping others will be helped with my journey and especially the help from all of you.
1-1-11 Progress Report. Broken and frustrated but never giving up. I am now back at 512 lbs and more than deservedly so. I have been reinvigorated by my failures the last few weeks. I am now focusing all the knowledge I have, to design a complete plan that is easier and more fitting to me and my addiction to food. I was really frustrated with the severity of cravings I had before because of the dietary changes I had made. So the new changes to my plan that I am making will no longer not allow me to deal with the cravings. So until the site is up and functional, I am here learning my weaknesses, dealing with my addictions, striving to survive. I love you all and thank you for your patience with me and prayers. Happy New Year and 2011 is going to be a great year. James.
It not the one that never falls that wins the race but the one that gets back up. You can do this James. I suspect that you've been somewhat of a yoyo dieter in the past. Just noting that this illness gave you an excuse to gain back what you worked so hard to lose. This means we have less resolve. I did the yoyo thing for years. There's always been 10 to 20 lbs wiggle room until I hit 45 and the thyroid took it's plundge. Everything slows down with age. So you need to throw that yoyo out and on to a new year.
ReplyDeleteSomething I'm not sure if I've shared with you. But I've learned that if I eat my big meal of the day around noon, meaning eating backwards from most americans, I'm able to control my weight. I know that i need the big meal for energy to get thru the afternoon, so I eat that then nibble thruout the rest of the day.
I might have nutigrain waffles for breakfast say 9:00 or fruit. Then the big dinner, then a salad or fruit and nuts thruout the day. So towards evening I've saved room and pts for a snack of some kinds cereal or what whatever and I never go to bed hungry. This way of eating keeps me full and I have plenty of energy. I've learned to read my body carefully. Sometimes the fear of being hungry is actually worse than being hungry. There are times when I'll listen for my stomach to growl..then I know it's time to add some fuel.
I'm glad your feeling better..Happy New Year and happy new start. Get it done. The only power holding you back is you. I'll keep reading.