I have had a rough few weeks. I lost the will to continue in the plan while I was sick with pneumonia. I was on steroids and ended up gaining 8 lbs. I found myself using the possible weight gain from the medication as my excuse to abandon all restraint. I fell off the wagon so to speak, but instead of just falling, I dove in head first clinging onto my new shiny excuse like it was a back stage pass to my favorite band.
I have been depressed due to my actions and I was avoiding this blog because I knew what posting on here would mean. I would find myself facing the truth about the decisions I was making. I was most frustrated with the fact that I knew I should have been eating even healthier, but I reached for chocolate instead. I indulged in all of the Christmas treats and did not hold back at all.
So as in keeping with tradition I issued myself a challenge for my New Year's resolution. I am expanding my page from just a blog to a website that will make it a lot easier for people to follow my story. I am adding a links page for the study information that I use. I will be organizing the page for people to either follow daily or on a once in a while basis. The challenge I have issued to myself consists of combining all the knowledge I have and rediscovered since the inception of this blog into a concerted effort that will result in 300 lbs lost in 365 days. I may stumble along the way, but I know the efforts I make this year will be beneficial either way.
So there it is, I am refocusing all of my efforts now that I have recovered from being sick, I am no longer on the drugs that were causing me to gain weight. I don't have any more excuses and have felt the defeat of the last 3 weeks already catching up with me with my breathing and back issues. My resolve is stronger than it has been and I am looking at the whole New Year's resolution as my time to reinvent. All the same requested input will apply to my new site as well, and I have a page dedicated to the best advice I am given. I will still continue to attempt to reach as many people with this as possible because I am hoping others will be helped with my journey and especially the help from all of you.
1-1-11 Progress Report. Broken and frustrated but never giving up. I am now back at 512 lbs and more than deservedly so. I have been reinvigorated by my failures the last few weeks. I am now focusing all the knowledge I have, to design a complete plan that is easier and more fitting to me and my addiction to food. I was really frustrated with the severity of cravings I had before because of the dietary changes I had made. So the new changes to my plan that I am making will no longer not allow me to deal with the cravings. So until the site is up and functional, I am here learning my weaknesses, dealing with my addictions, striving to survive. I love you all and thank you for your patience with me and prayers. Happy New Year and 2011 is going to be a great year. James.
